You may remember Amanda and I from when I posted something for us a couple months ago when I told you guys about our story.
This is almost the same thing, except its got much more in depth because today, dearest tumblr readers, is our 6 month. <3 So baby girl, this is for you.
The words ” I love you ” dont even begin to explain how deeply I feel for you. The way I feel for you, is unlike anything I’ve ever felt for someone and thats including my first love.
I mean, just last night when we were on the phone, we were talking about how shitty our past was but we have to be grateful for everyone in that past because they led us to each other. You had your obvious ex fiancee issue which led you to VampireFreaks and I had my ex best friend issue which led me to VampireFreaks. Its funny how back then, love was the last thing on our minds before we met each other. Its also a freaking miracle that to think…we might not have ever met because we were both having suicide thoughts. Its astounding how destiny and fate work in their mysterious ways.
December 2010…thats when it all started. Thats the magical month that would change our lives for good. You know as well as I know that it doesnt feel like half a year. It feels more like the two years that we’ve known each other because you and I ALWAYS have and will share that special connection that can never tear us apart. Once my heart got a glimpse of you, that warm light at the end of the tunnel, it ran full speed ahead and never looked back.
We’ve been through so much that I cant even begin to explain. The drama between our friends, the laughs, the annoyance at each other, the serious conversations about our future, the private jokes that still make us laugh, the silly faces we make at one another while on skype, the lust filled wishes we make at night, the need for the silent but meaningful touches and everything else a long distance relationship needs.
People doubted us. People say ” It’ll never last ” or ” Its not real ” and ” Its fake ” when it comes to our relationship but do you wanna know what the best revenge against them is? Being together and staying together. We dont need to prove to them or anyone else what our relationship is about. All that matters is that you AND I know its real, meaningful and we’re in the deepest love anyone has ever seen. It takes special people to be in a long distance relationship. It takes real commitment, sacrifice, and in a way we top over other relationships because we cant get ‘used’ to be with each other 24/7. We cant take advantage of the fact that we know you’re right around the corner in the next room. When we do see each other, its like the world stops for those seconds of shy contact. I cant wait to kiss those pretty lips of yours, to hold those cute fingers of yours, to run my fingers through your silky hair, and to look deeply into your eyes and tell you I love you.
But you know what I really cant wait for? I cant wait until the day I get to ask you to be mine for the rest of our lives. That day…and every day after that, my life will be complete. 4/23/14. Thats the day when you will forever be attached to me, not that you already arent but you know. :] Hopefully when we’re married, you’ll realize just how sexy and beautiful you are to me without make up and without losing weight. Yes yes yes I know its for health reasons (you annoyed me with that last night xD) but I just want you to know that you are perfect the way you are to me. You’re my curvalicious beauty queen, and you will be treated like the very queen you are every day. Well…okay well heres hoping that my Leo personality wont make a wreck of that. Stupid thing. xD
Holy shit…wow. I’ve been listening to a love song for inspiration to continue writing this, not that I need it, but by the time I realized it…the damn thing was over. Shows how into these things I can really get huh? xD
Okay so I’m sure this is long as flying hell so I’m gonna leave this be…damn I’m a rambler…-shakes head with shame-
ANYWAY! Know that I love you with every single fiber of my being you silly panda you. You will always and forever be my little Pandaroo. I cant wait to see you in 2 weeks! HOLY SHIT! -dances like an idiot- Uh huh. Uh huh. Uh huh uh huh uh huh!
o.o…Okay yeah Im definately out of here. x] <3